I thought I mattered until society made it perfectly clear that no one really values me or cares what happens to me. I don't have an impressive resume but also have a college education, so I'm at that point where no one wants to hire me for the menial jobs because they figure I'm just going to leave if I find a better opportunity anyway, while no one wants to hire me for the career type jobs because why should they when they have 50 other applicants with decades of experience on their resumes? They also want applicants who are outgoing types, and I'm an introvert who isn't really good at things like trying to sell people stuff, so employers see no value in hiring me. Since no one thinks I'm worth hiring for a job, I can't get approved for an apartment since employers want to see someone with, not only a source of income, which I technically have since I freelance write but it's very low pay, but someone with a steady and pretty high income. Since I don't meet these requirements that society has decided one must meet in order to live, I'm screwed. So what if I wind up homeless and starving to death? Literally nobody cares; nobody even wants to hear about it. Or what if I have to live with my violent and psychotic sister who throws her period blood at me among other abusive things? Not any employer's problem; they still don't want me and don't care if spend every day in misery because they have deemed me unworthy of an income to support myself on. So what if I can't afford the healthcare I've needed for a long time and wind up dying? Nobody cares...sucks to be me as far as literally everyone is concerned.

Society has made it pretty clear to me that not only are people like me not needed, but I'm also not wanted. Virtually every aspect of society is stacked against my survival at this point.