Ok, firstly, we only had drunk sex once. The first time we had sex we were drunk and he got me pregnant. We slept more than 3 times. The other times we were both sober and used protection except the one time I was still pregnant. He might have his own feelings about the situation, but it does not justify him not caring. I aborted cause I had no choice. We were both irresponsible. But you must remember that my feelings are just as important as his. Especially since his feelings were to just walk away and ignore the situation he also put himself into. I did everything on my own. Did I mention he wanted to punch me in the stomach to avoid the costs of an abortion that he didn't even help me pay in the first place? He would rather hurt me than pay? What do you mean I don't respect him or his judgment with good reason? Do you mean that it's justifiable for me to not respect him or that it's justified for him to not care since I don't respect his feelings? I know I was irresponsible. I can't take back anything I did. If I could, I would. The only thing I can do is to better myself from the situation and to ask God for forgiveness. I just wish he cares. I guess it's too much to ask for some people to treat me properly and care a little more. Maybe that makes me selfish, but I can't help it.

Edit: Just to add, don't think I want money from him. Cause I don't. I couldn't care less about that. In fact. I don't even want it.