Lamictal did made ma flat yup, and Abilify gives me energy.

Yea, I noticed that only routine keeps me balanced, like going to work, go home, eat, sleep, then do some chores bla bla bla....stuff like that.

But I don't want to live like this. Cus the spontaneous things are the ones that are really great, travelling, etc., and I want all that. So I'll talk to my pdoc about this fear of change cus before, a change made my mood swing, now it makes me nervous, not neceserally anxiety like feeling, but nervous.

Hugs to you all**