Hi
I have Anxiety and Panic issues and am currently on meds,my daughter and I had a huge fall out before I started these meds because she got pregnant at 16.

I went to her ultrasounds with her but she left me sat in the waiting room and chose to have the scan with her friend,that day my daughter was very nasty and hurtful to me and was saying I wasn't there for her when my mum died so why should she let me be there for her now,she left me sat alone for over an hour. this ultrasound thing seemed like a payback thing to me. (I was hugely upset and this led to a confrontation firstly with her then with her boyfriends mum where my daughter had been staying.My daughter constantly threw up my failings i have in her eyes over a number of issues that had nothing to do with her,like how I dont bother with my brother and his wife and by not speaking to them while she is means ive ruined her life.

The confrontation was bad very bad I was kicking her boyfriends door shouting,I had lost the plot completely,I have never felt that angry and hurt in my life,I lost control,I calmed down just in time for the police to arrive,I wasn't arrested they just sent me home.

The day after this confrontation I had a Major breakdown and presented myself up at the hospital to get help,there over a few appointments I was assessed and diagnosed with Anxiety Panic Bereavement and Anger issues,I wasn't crazy or in need of a hospital stay,I got told I was actually quite normal.

My daughter moved out due to our row and because my son moved his girlfriend in.
After yet another huge text row where my daughter lied and lied and created a traumatic history for herself we fell out,I could not make sense out of her nonsense and was becoming more ill.

We didn't speak for 7 weeks then her baby decided to put in an early appearance,My husband and I were met at home by our sister in law whom we dont speak to who proceeded to say my daughter had given birth but I was not allowed to see her or her baby.

My husband and I went straight up to the hospital and my daughter was ok with us for a few weeks,then I started to see the old patterns coming and asked her why shes being distant and not trying to help mend our relationship (I tried n tried)and to cut this short she accused me of being a nasty drunk who cant be trusted around her child (I go out once a week and yes ive texted her drunk i texted her every day since her baby was born)she says im a bad person and have been a bad mother yet my older son does not share her views her boyfriends mum has custody of his sisters 2 kids both under 5 due to physical issues on the children apparently from the ex boyfriend,I expressed concerns(to my daughter) about my daughter living there when her baby comes out of hospital (my daughter went and told her man that id been slating his sister and him and his mum)I only asked if my daughter believed her daughter would be safe around his sister!),and now im accussed of calling his sister allsorts .I am now not allowed to see my grandaughter and my daughter hates me.

And guess what now we have had another huge text row and she has called me every hurtful thing going and says she would trust his sister with her baby and not me im heartbroken and my illness is trying to go into overload again.

Deep breath...just wanted to rant it out
Best advice I ever had was i get upset because my brain is trying to make sense out of the nonsense
I think my daughter is narcisstic and looking into that i ended up on this site.