there's this guy. i've already been out with him 3 times. none of those times even lasted a week. and he told me last night he likes me. and i kinda still like him. but i completely freak out in relationships. i can't even look at him without panicking. having a boyfriend was the most terrifying experience of my life and i've avoided it since. but he is a really nice guy and i don't wanna hurt him. he said sorry about a million times. he blames the last 3 times on himself because he has a problem with major mood swings and he was having a hard time with him family back them. i tried to tell him it wasn't him, it was me. but i couldn't explain how coz i don't know how to tell him about everything that goes on in my head. and since he's the only person that seems to care at the moment (my friends have been acting funny the past 2 weeks) i don't wanna scare him off. and i don't want last times to all happen again. but this time i know about his mood swings and he knows i have voices in my head that always tell me i'm doing everything wrong and that it'll never work. but he doesn't know the extent of it. and i don't know how to tell him. i would probably have to tell him for it to work, so he can understand. but i just don't think i can. help

-steph
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