I did it! Nervous about how to start, I was extremely quiet and distracted during dinner. Immediately after dinner, I began doing busy work around the house. My wife asked my if anything was wrong. I said that there was, and then I gave her a printout of my post (above). She said that she knew I was still using but she didn't know how frequent the use was. She was supportive and direct. She asked if I truly wanted to give it up forever. I said, "Yes!" and I mean it. She asked what it was that made me want to quit. I told her, "I am tired of sneaking around. I knew I was playing with fire every time that I drove or went to work while stoned. And I know that the weed has contributed to my depression and my reckless behavior." She asked that I seek out therapy for my depression, issues with the reckless behavior, and my family history of drug and alcohol abuse. I agreed. She asked that I give our faith another honest try. I agreed. I also told her that I plan to attend meetings for support - Marijuana Anonymous & LifeRing (I attend my first MA meeting tonight). She also said that the extra money needed for the therapy is well worth it considering some of the alternatives if I were to continue using.

That's it. I am so relieved. I feel much better. And I know that the real work now begins.