Do you ever just feel like you're going crazy? and feel like you want to scream and cry and cry but you just can't cry?

I feel just so sad, and sick of everything, I feel like just smashing everything up and I just can't cry.

I honestly think if I could cry it would feel a bit better. I keep it bottled up inside and it just keeps building up but I just can't let it out.

I literally feel that extreme sadness that I can feel it inside my chest. I feel like you feel when you do that uncontrollable ugly loud sobbing, but it's just all stuck inside me. I try to scream and curl up in bed but I just can't get rid of it.

It's this kind of extreme sadness, but I don't feel slow and sleepy, I feel agitated and like screaming.