That is a terrible thing to have happened to you... its hard to know why we do the things we do sometimes, especially when it comes to abuse. It may have been because of fear of disappointing or losing the other person... or being in a situation where you aren't sure what you are "supposed" to do. Be kind to yourself.

I let people take advantage of me when I was young too... I had a more indifferent feeling concerning myself though, because I was conceited I think.

Trigger: Violence: If I had been there for you I would have picked up some furniture and slammed it in his face before proceeding to beat the ever loving crap out of him.