So we tried to discuss our problems again. To give you a bigger picture - about 2 months ago she accused me of anger management problems. Quite frankly I was confused about it on the beginning and gladly accepted I'm the problem - again. For her it became simple - I get rid of anger management problem and everything will be better.

I have even agreed to seek therapy. Have read a ton of articles on topic. So when we had again a situation when she accused me of anger problem I've challenged her noting that I barely fulfill any anger management problem symptoms. I even chnaged the form of communicating "difficult" topics with her to emails. But she said she still feels my anger between the lines. I've decided to stay quite - she accused me of expressing anger through my face... Finally I've realized that perhaps I took a blame for everything again - unnecessarily.

So during our recent conversation I've told her that she has a problem and need to stop to criticize me. Her answer was... "you need to learn to handle criticism better". I guess only therapy can change anything now.

Funny thing is that until my first post here I was feeling guilt, I was blaming myself for everything wrong in our relationship. Your posts got me thinking. Now I have realized she had never apologized to me. Not a single time (apart from sarcastic "sorry" when we were arguing). Seems like she really believes everything wrong is down to me.

Now I freed up my mind out of the constant guilt. I realize now only miracle can rescue leftovers of this relationship. But it's hard to take.