It seems my whole life I've been hurting myself somehow. Ever since my late teen years I've noticed that the only time I really enjoy having sex with anyone is when we first meet and for the first few months. But as soon as things start to get serious, I start to like the sex less and less, until the point where I don't want it at all. It's like something about it disgusts me. I will lay in bed and my heart will raise, I won't be able to catch my breath. Like I'm having a full on panic attack. I don't know what is wrong with me. I love my husband and I want to want to have sex with him, but I just don't know why this is happening to me. Why did I want to when we first met, but not after we became more intimate with each other? It's like I'm telling him that I'm not attracted to him, but that's not true, I am. But I don't know how to fix this issue.