Have I ever! I always tell my psychiatrist and therapist the truth and I'm open about my thoughts and behaviors. I was once told by my psychiatrist that if my family didn't get involved, she could call CPS. She told me later she said that (in front of my sister) to emphasize the necessity in protecting me and them (my family was not very active in my treatment at the time and I am a stay at home mom). I am not a bad mom, she was just afraid I would hurt myself and therefore put them in jeopardy--my thoughts and behaviors were bizarre at the time. I really wished I had shut my little mouth though. I have obviously never been told anything scarier in my life! I just have always seen myself as a normal and good mom...I rarely even lose my temper and my kids are well behaved and well cared for so I never in my life dreamed of such a threat. Terrifying!
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Every finger in the room is pointing at me
I want to spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring
I got a bowling ball in my stomach I got a desert in my mouth
Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now
Tori Amos ~ Crucify
Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder
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