Glad I am inpatient at the moment. Had a bad few days, especially last night. But doubled my clonazepam so the anxiety is much better, just the depression and pain to deal with now. Got a huge day today, group in the morning, psychotherapy straight after then going out for a ride on my horse this afternoon with a friend. I hope the ride lifts my mood and loosens up my body a bit, I need some exercise as I have been cooped up with depression the last few days. Got triggered by a few things last night so that was a pretty terrible night, in hindsight I should have gone to bed earlier but the lady in the room next door was being transferred to the locked ward and making a kuffuffle so I couldnt have slept even with the earplugs. Might see if I can get my meds early tonight and have a good sleep as Im waking between 4 and 5.30 am at the moment. I dont mind getting up at 5.30 but 4 is way too early especially being winter here.

Sorry for not catching up on all your stories, cant deal with much of it right now. (hug) to you all who are doing it tough and well done to those of you who are coping well, keep up the good work.