Agreed with Trying2Survivea and Kimaya wholeheartedly. There's not much I can say other than: be yourself here - you're absolutely free. And dont feel bad about lying to people: most of them are judgemental PRICKS, who don't want to know nor care about our problems, so might as well. But seek a therapist and spill your guts out - that's the best thing you can for yourself at the present moment. And a good psychiatrist too. Just dont lie to THEM. I don't trust people either, but at least I no longer fear being judged - just look at my profile and posts. And you WON'T be judged here as well, so open up and I wish you much love and happiness. Sent you a friend request, you can count on me.