I am really trying to figure out what is going on in my world and have a few things that I have always assumed were one thing but now I wonder.
Whenever I have gotten very upset about something, I can go from various levels of upset/sadness (even complete bawling) to instant calm. I have always assumed I was just had a great ability to calm myself but as I was laying here in that 'calm' place after being upset I realized that when I am in that 'moment', I don't want anything. I don't want to be. I was watching a tv program I wanted to get into and didn't care anymore and shut it off. Laying here wanting to go to sleep in my 'calm' I realized I felt more like a shell then something calm. I decided to come post and see what people thought.
Does that sound like I should shut up and be happy I can calm myself that easily or is something else going on here I need to let my therapist know about? I do NOT want to create things that are not here, but new to therapy I don't want to tell him I am fine with emotion and can calm down easily when upset if that is not really what is going on. Insights?