Hi I hear you I'm also addicted to pain relief due to chronic pain, I did try to reduce it and stop it all together but the withdrawal was horrific plus the initial pain on top was just too much.
I don't have an answer to your question it I just wanted to let you know your not alone, there's millions of us with this problem.
I know for sure without pain relief I couldn't handle my pain and I'd have no quality of life.
Some days I think well so what I'm addicted of I need it I need it, then other day I think OMG how horrible it is relying on meds to function.
Please don't try to stop taking anything without speaking to dr first I did that once an had a seizure.
Let us know how you get on and take care
J