Thank you everyone. I was half an hour late to work this morning so I'm not getting off to a good start
One of the sales guys gave me a funny look and said "your very late today" and i just felt like getting in my car and leaving because I felt like I could break down. Normally when I feel like that I would have cried but it seems like I still can't. I suppose maybe it's a good thing, I hate it when I just cry at the tiniest of things. But this is worse because it just builds up inside me.
I am not coping, but the pay I get for being off sick is not enough to live off, so I can't even take some time off which I really need, and all my holiday days are planned out already. I have two weeks to go abroad in August, so I am just literally counting down until then!