I've not cried in around 7 years. The last time I did: I was at a girls house with a friend. It had been just over a year since I had broken up with my girlfriend. I remember that my ex came up in conversation somehow and it made me cry. Not the ugly, bawling type of crying - I just shed a few tears, held my head, told the people I was with that I missed her, then apologized because I was embarrassed.

The time before that was a year previously, when I broke up with said girl. That was ugly crying as I prayed over a letter I had written her.

Now I can't cry, I just fall into this black despair and slump into a corner.