I'm so sorry you are going thru this....

On meds......... I am not familiar with the one that you are talking about... But I have severe anxiety and always fought (for years) to not go on any meds at all.. Then my world completely crashed down on me in kinda emergency situation. I ended at pdoc - he put me on paxil - which was appropriate for my depression and anxiety... For me it had reached a point where my life was unliveable - I couldn't do anything.... so I finally went on the med. It made a considerable differenece - very positive but with drawbacks - weight gain, withdrawal effects ..... so I am not pro med or anti med - it's just that for me my med made life much more liveable... it is an individual decision though...

I wish you the best...