I will get therapy but he said he doesnt love me. At times when we don't completely fight everything goes perfectly fine and we're both happy as if we just started dating. But for this past month we've done nothing but fight and i refuse to let him go because i've known him for 6 yrs and hes my first bf. he was never like this 2 years ago. Hes mean he mocks me and ignores me when im raging but i want his attention. He is an amazing guy, he used to care a lot for me, tried to help in many ways, gave me a lot of chances, stood by my side..I don't want to go i can't imagine him being with another girl and enjoying life and there is none in the world like him .-. while im here cutting myself crying and do other crazy stuff ;-;