Thanks everyone for the support. I've always felt really bad about myself for what I let happen to with him, like I really should have known better. But when I look at my boys now who are about to be the age I was when that happened, all of 12 years old, and he was 24, I have to think, goodness, I can't even imagine my boys having sex at their age. They're just children. They're still babies. A 24 year old is an adult. Why was he interested in a 12 year old? Now that I look at it from a grown ups point of view? That's disgusting, isn't it? I can't even imagine what he saw in me. I know that I had developed early, but I was still a child. I had no sexual experience. Anyway, I just habe to move on. Thanks everyone.