My T doesn't really react to what I say usually. I have only started to really trust her after 2yrs seeing her. For a while I tested the waters per se, she called me out on it a few months ago. I just have to be certain I know how far I push and can push before she thinks I've gone too far. I kinda got scared a few weeks after she called me out. We mentioned my SI which I thought we had talked of before and she kinda seemed to act very quickly in asking all about it. What I use when was this when's the last time etc. it really kinda freaked me out and I thought she was going to have me hospitalized.

She didn't she doesn't really ask about it anymore and I feel on safer ground now. But I did close off some an I think it has prevented me from speaking more. Last session I was very quiet and didn't answer her questions. I kinda shut down. Dunno what's going to happen next time.