My friend often tries to cheer me up, he tries to be goofy, and often makes silly jokes that crack me up, but it makes me feel miserable inside. I feel like I shouldn't be laughing. It gives him a false impression that I'm getting better because of him. He sometimes tries to drag me out of my hole (my house) and take me places, but sunlight makes me really depressed, and crowds make me anxious. I'm being nice to him, and I'm nice to people, but I want to be left alone at this time.

I appreciate him trying to make me feel better, and it might work for other people, but it doesn't work for me. I'd much rather prefer a somber, serious talk. He's trying to cheer me up but I don't feel like I should be expressing joy on the surface when I don't feel happy inside (I hope somebody gets this).