Oh thank god, lol. I was beginning to think I was a horrible person for wanting someone who is only trying to cheer me up to stop.

When I was younger, I developed a sense of humor and ability to crack jokes as a 'defense mechanism' of sorts to hide my own depression and make other people laugh, I didn't want other people to feel miserable because of me, back then I was only trying to desperately fit in, but these days, I'm comfortable avoiding people and being reclusive, since I know it's my nature and there's nothing wrong with it.