You are not selfish to go into the hospital and get the treatment that you need. If you keep putting everybody else first, you aren't going to have anything left to give to them, and that won't do anybody any good. You have a right to be able to be happy - and it isn't selfish.

I'm glad that visiting the puppy is helping you. Will they hold him for you until after you get out of the hospital? Or would your bf take care of the puppy for you? Animals really can help you to get over depression. There is nothing like the unconditional love that they give, and how it penetrates when nothing else is able to get through to you.

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