Mac....don't worry. I'm just as crazy. I've done it all. I don't think it is anything to feel guitly about and no need to tell. I find great comfort in checking him out. We live in a time where there is very little privacy. I've seen the inside of his house online too. I know so much about him via facebook. He would croak if he knew what I know. Just relax a bit. It helps me to see his face and to know more about his life. Sometimes it hurts to see what a lovely man he really is and the great family he has. That makes me sad, but I know real love is out there by checking out his life. Let us know what you decide. I think what you're doing is really okay and not hurtful or wierd. Kind of natural, if you ask me.