Depression will most definitely make you think the worst possible things about yourself, and even convince you that this is how the world sees you, but that doesn't mean it's so! I'm still trying to teach myself not to trust EVERYTHING my chemically imbalanced brain tells me after 30+ years of dealing with bipolar/depression! My "moods" tend to dictate what I think/believe during those times, and are frequently at odds with reality. My life lately has been consumed with finding the Truth, what is Real and what is the Lies my messed up head makes me believe.....about myself, my friends, my relationships. At some point, we just have to learn not to listen to all of the negative thoughts that depression brings, and see it for what it is, a mental condition that brings us down. It's not a personality flaw, "bad attitude", or anything of our own design or choosing. It doesn't make us bad people. Keep up the good fight!