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Originally Posted by cool09
For myself, I notice that if I'm irritable or agitated for a number of days I feel really disconnected and dissociated and can not relate to my other self one bit. I become a totally different person and also feel like I'm not really experiencing what is happening (ie. looking at it from an outside perspective). And I get thoughts that I would never have otherwise (hate my family, perpetual pessimism towards the World, etc.)
I guess anger is just one trait among many that can trigger dissociation (or maybe I'm on the wrong trail altogether since I also have a mood disorder)?
No PDOC or Psychologist has ever noticed this in me over last three decades (as inpatient or outpatient) which really frustrates me. And I've seen a lot of them, believe me.
I self-diagnosed this over the last year and brought it up a few times with PDOC. He told me that he knew 3-4 PDOCs in 1990's who treated dissociative disorders and he discovered that the PDOC usually knew more about the patient than the patient knew about him/herself.
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here in the USA dissociation is considered to be a normal reaction to things just like if someone told you a good joke that you liked you would smile, laugh, giggle what ever your body's reaction to something good happening and if someone said something that made you angry you would react with anger.
dissociation (feeling numb, spaced out, disconnected, ...) happens on many different scales from normal dissociation reactions of feeling numb, spaced out, disconnected from oneself or others , to the abnormal which here in america are the dissociative disorders...
http://forums.psychcentral.com/disso...s-dsm-5-a.html
because dissociation is a normal thing just like feeling happy or sad or angry, other emotions is normal there is no gene or common trait. its all individualized. by that I mean what makes one person smile and be happy is different than what makes another person feel happy and smile, what makes one person angry may not make another person angry. what makes one person dissociate may not make another person dissociate...
one thing that makes me feel numb, spaced out, disconnected from my body is thunder storms. my wife on the other hand enjoys thunder storms. what makes my wife feel numb spaced out, disconnected from herself is geranium flowers, I love geraniums. and one of my friends feels numb, spaced out, disconnected from herself when she rides the subway, I dont exactly love riding the subway but I dont space out, numb out when riding the subway. heights make a friend of mine feel numb, spaced out yet her partner loves high places, its low enclosed places that affect her.
one thing I can tell you is that there are many many things /reasons behind why a person would feel dissociated when angry. some of those reasons can be age related, or any number of mental or medical health reasons. for me what triggers my dissociation symptoms is work stress, MS (multiple Sclerosis) PTSD, not getting enough sleep, not eating correctly for my body, Bipolar disorder, PTSD, an ear infection, and in the past medication reactions. I could continue listing many causes for my dissociation symptoms but you get the point.
what makes you feel numb, spaced out, disconnected from yourself is going to be different than others may be when they are dissociated. my suggestion keep working with your treatment providers they can help you to discover why being angry makes you dissociate and help you learn tools that will enable you to be more grounded and connected to yourself.