What you've been through sounds traumatic.

Adults that go for older teens, have no idea, the damage that creates. It is abuse, then to behave abusively on top of that moral violation, for shame.

Are you in therapy, I hope? It tends to affect how people in general are perceived, touch of cynicism, it's as if with that loss of innocence time frame, coupled by abuses, (15-27/8?) It's trauma, indeed. See how it affected perceptions, even here?
...just read thru thread, first time now...

There's a feeling, I've found of feeling tossed to the wolves through that time frame, and sometimes that feeling comes back. I tend to stand back, trying to comprehend, if the person is friendly, like a turtle peeking out of shell. I was fortunate, to get a bit of nurturing added to trauma, so i don't always feel in fight mode during a trigger. .