My heart is bursting in my chest.
I feel like I'm suffocating.
I think I made a big mistake.

My sister told me she has stomach cancer and has 6 months to live. She is only 23.. stomach cancer is really, really rare at her age. She was being shady about it and not providing details. I asked a bunch of questions that she wouldn't answer. And, because she has a history of lying about BIG things, and has lied to me a lot before (e.g., about pregnancy, about a sexual assault which she admitted did not happen), a few days later when there was still no proof, I accused her of lying.

But now she has invited me to her oncology appointment in two weeks. This is with a specialist she could ONLY see if she had a diagnosis. If this appointment actually happens, then it's true. She has it. She's going to die.

She is so livid that I accused her of lying, that she said that she never wants to speak to me again. That I can go to her oncology appointment so that I'll leave her alone, and that as far as she's concerned, I can go die after that.

I love my sister.
I really thought she was lying.
She has lied so much about big things, and I'd been struggling to trust her again.
But I think she might have been telling the truth this time.
I feel so sick.
I guess I could use support. A lot. A lot of it. And if anyone knows if something like this can even be salvaged in six months time.