So I was taking 30mg adderal which I decided to stop about 2 months ago. Didn't seem to help me at all, no more changes. I am trying wellbutrin 300 mg (1 week at 150) now to see if this helps. I also have klonopins which seem to keep my tension at bay when I take a couple. My pdoc recommend that if I feel more normal while taking these then take daily. Today is day 1 of this. Maybe if the tension is gone I won't care much of other things that usually get me going. I will wait and see as well as report. On another note I would like to say that there are some people here who I genuinely appreciate as I feel the ties and similarities in turn making me feel understood. After all is there really anyone who can truly understand our minds other than our own kind?? At the same time when I see others who seem so fake and trying to repeat what they learn of it automatically sets me into an aggressive state. Part of my downfall as I know I shouldn't even pay it any mind. Guess this is why it's called a disorder. I am going to try and ignore the things that bother me and only write what is for me and for others that only make sense to me. No need to try and prove that I am better, worse and all in between to anyone else. Another NPD trait to work on. So consider my posts from here on out either ones that will ignore and not let my aggression come through as words but rather write about my days, past, present and future. So to the ones I've leashed out at go fu?@ yourselves..... Just kidding. Again making myself laugh. Truly will try to ignore what I find so irritating here and write in a positive way(maybe). Anyway it's been fun writing this and maybe the calmness of my klonopins are really helping lol!!!
Love always,
Me