Thanks Teacake.
My 'that' my T thinks is from longterm childhood neglect followed by a situation with a trusted adult in the teen years. Since the childhood stuff was from a very young age, I don't have a reference to use to say that I 'lost' or 'numbed' emotions because I am not sure what should or should not be there. It is sort of like asking a person that just gained their eyesight from a surgery if they are seeing things correctly???? How would they know??
I have had a few episodes of what I called 'loosing it' and tried to get help for what I was told was just anxiety in the past, but this T believes it is PTSD. He is asking me questions that I am not sure how to answer. I thank you helping shed a little light. How do I answer whether my feelings feel numbed if I don't know what they SHOULD feel like? I know I want to cry A LOT (especially over the last few weeks as I started talking to him), but I know that is sadness, so there is a feeling/emotion..

Oh, it is SOOOO confusing. Thanks again for the feedback.