I get it. I think lots of people do. Sometimes, I laugh so hard with co-workers or friends, that my kidneys hurt! But, what most people don't understand, is that we slip back down into that hole. I had turned to drugs and alcohol to hide the pain, but after years, it just made everything worse. I managed to quit and stay sober for quite awhile now, but the depression still comes back and I end up down in a hole again. It is something that we can't expect people to understand, but know that we are hurting and we are also here for you. Praying!