just feel so lonely I dont blame people for not wanting to spend time with me tho. I mean, who would want to spend time with a depressed suicidal idiot???

Seen my CPN (community psychiatric nurse) today and told her about my suicidal feelings. She said she would phone me tomo to check on me, and that she would try to speak to my doc about upping the dosage of my meds.

just wish I didnt feel so empty and alone