I'm probably too late with this response because you might have already had the session, but anyways...
I see nothing wrong with sharing that. I've done all of those things, with the exception of I haven't found pics of the interior of his house or looked for voting records, anyways I told him about it. Yes, it was a bit awkward for me, but it didn't seem to surprise him. I think it's normal, and expected with those of us with attachment issues especially. I felt like less of a creeper after telling him, but I continued to Google here and there for a month or two after that, and now I've finally stopped (I think).
What I came to realize is being close to something related to him comforted me, and I think that's what all this behavior is really about. It's like here I have this attachment to someone who feels "safe" and sometimes I need to remember that feeling more than once a week. There was a picture on his website so I saved it, the only one I have. Now I look at the picture from time to time, like when I'm panicking or overwhelmingly sad. I highly recommend this if you can get over how lame it feels. This is crazy, but I think the picture is almost equivalent to Xanax.
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