Thanks for reading and responding kerf and kaliope.

Kreg, Yes I hear it just takes time. And distance. I've not talked to the woman I obsess over in months. Life is better now. Exercise; yes I agree as well. I'm recovering from broken ribs but have already started walking and will increase it all. Wild dream u had. Good to know the crows died. And yes I'm getting more and more into meditation and just slowing down. I was a huge multitasker before. Now I do one thing at a time. And try to pause between tasks. It's not in my personality though so takes work.

Kaliope, wow yes. Working the out the memories. I've faced mine, taking time to grieve everyday. Even though it's over an idealization, it's still a loss. But yes face them head on w no substances. Give them face time and maybe they'll diminish. I'm having some progress with that.

I'm still so confused how I got so emotionally dependent on someone I wasn't into. Or anyone in general, it's not in my nature to be dependent. The doc said depression can do that. And the ups and downs bug me, but I've found the obsession creeps in more when I'm tired. And have been drinking. I've been given Seroquel, Straline, Shri, ssri, and a few others but have harsh reactions to pretty much everything except Xanax. And I'm not taking that much now, so once the ribs heal, exercise!