I feel like I am hanging by a thread today I know the day is almost done but at different times today felt like I was going to throw up because I am so upset. The horrible thing is what the heck am I so upset about why. I am so tired of fighting this depression I think one of these days it is going to win what a shame that would be NOT.

I wish I was not writing this but so many thoughts are going through my head and none of them are good. I have been faking it with everyone today except my therapist I wrote a email to her early today and I was completely honest. I feel like I am drowning in sorrow.