Until I feel better then Im all like "oh I was just in a weird funk."
"Im fine."
"Im not really bipolar."
"Maybe I just fake these feelings."
"Im too sensitive...life isn't really messed up like it feels to me"
"People don't like me because Im dramatic."
"Im attention seeking...I don't *really* feel that out of control..."

Then:

"If I could Id go straight to his house and have sex with him right now!"-not even in a relationship with this guy friend

"I need to watch porn because Im going crazy. Its all I think about."

"Im so anxious that I cant stand it!"

"I need to save my lithium and OD. I don't want to die but I need to cause I feel like this."

"I feel great...why was I like that earlier today? Im back to normal"...until a couple hours later.

"I want to die. Im going to research lithium and see how dangerous it is."

Annnd theeeeeeeeeeeeeeeen like a week later....I feel fine! Im good!!

All of that and so much more. All of it goes through my mind randomly.