From my experience years ago, I do think I held on to depression -- it got to be familiar, a heavy blanket. Not that it was comforting, just familiar. I didn't know who I would be without it at the time, so that was scary. However, this time around that is not the case at all for me. I don't want to hang on to it at all, just want it to be gone and move on. So, I think it's different for everybody and can be something that is there sometimes and sometimes not. If you don't feel you are hanging on to it then you probably aren't, I would think.

As for the memory problems I can totally relate!!! I forget everything, lose things, etc. I think it's a symptom of our depression.