to add more about it, i liked him before, like really. and i was sure of it. and when me and my bf just broke up i saw him again in a game, and he started a relationship with someone else which made me really sad. he added me on skype and it was like i couldn't reach him, i don't know if it was a feeling or just a fact. i think it was a feeling. i don't know what it means. i have it now too. it makes everything hard. i was in a huge depression later and didn't come out of my bed for once, just to draw (him) or to check if he was online. and i had to get into a clinic. i was staring into a window for like 4 months, after that it went better and talked with people and had fun and stuff, and there was a girl i had contact with and wrote letters with (i still talk with her). i really loved her but sometimes it just went wrong with her too. i felt like i couldn't reach her. i had that with everyone since then and it really made me sad. i came out of the clinic and had trouble with people there too, because i wanted to "reach" people so badly, i got kinda desperate. it's like, knowing for sure they care or something.. so yeah, much stuff happend and after a year i saw that guy on facebook. i feel different than before. maybe it's because so much stuff happend, and i got veryvery desperate. i still want to impress on him more than others, and think he's the coolest person on earth.. but he doesn't make me happy. so what's that?