So, I've looked at the traits of narcissistic personality disorder...
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- Expects to be recognized as superior and special, without superior accomplishments
- Expects constant attention, admiration and positive reinforcement from others
- Envies others and believes others envy him/her
- Is preoccupied with thoughts and fantasies of great success, enormous attractiveness, power, intelligence
- Lacks the ability to empathize with the feelings or desires of others
- Is arrogant in attitudes and behavior
- Has expectations of special treatment that are unrealistic
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and yes, I do see these traits in myself.
the biggest issues these days is the desire for attention... I say and do things to get attention, and then feel like an idiot afterward. Other people notice that I have all the above traits, also, and give me a hard time.... I also am very impressed with my own intelligence, at times, even though in more lucid moments, I know I'm not all that special. There are certainly people I know who are more intelligent than I am.
I've just started therapy again, after 5 years... mostly because of BPD traits.... but, the therapist has also mentioned my NPD traits (same therapist- 5 years ago), as well.
I don't think I have the full-blown disorder, or I couldn't be aware that NPD is a bad thing, right? I thought true NPD's didn't even want help for their problems... and that they blame whatever problems they do have on everyone else.