Hi there.. you are NOT alone. Don't ever forget that.

My dad's side of the family doesn't understand. My mom's side does, because we suffer from the same thing. Depression and bipolar.

I have given my dad tons of stuff to read about depression. Still, when i had lunch with him yesterday, he told me to cheer up.

I'm having major issues right now.. my boyfriend is moving to Chicago (we live in Florida). I have no desire to go there. We are so much in love.. but at this point in his life he needs to put his career first and everything else second. He said he feels like he's abandoning me... which has been a trigger for me.. damn those triggers. Bringing up all kinds of crap from my past that i had previously blocked out.

I'm going for intensive therapy next week at a mental health facility. I can't handle the pain on my own. This is why i sought this online forum. It's nice to know we are NOT alone. We can't just cheer up or snap out of it. It's a chemical imbalance that requires medication. I urge you to try to find ways to get counseling and meds. You can try calling 211. It goes to the United Way, which may have more resources you can try. You also might try the Partnership for Prescription Assistance. That commercial that you see all the time. They're helping people who don't have insurance.

Good luck and keep posting. We are all here for you.
Sending mental hugs.... susan