Hi,

I am going on 7 years of marriage with no kids. I got sober, and my husband is a functioning alcoholic who still smokes cigarettes. He is older (55) and doesn't take care of himself; he is also abusive in everyway but physically. I am on ssi with medicare so I only need a PT job. I will need to take over my past role of being a homeowner which is scary.

I know life is too short to be unhappy, and my husband makes me feel bad about myself. I don't need any help in that department. He has also been sleeping on the couch for about a year. I will be a resentful she-devil if I have to spend 20 years being his nurse because of his unhealthy lifestyle. He owns his own business, has no health insurance, no 401K, no IRA, and inflated his salary when we met. I am an only child and my parents are upper middle class so I may stand to have an inheritance of money and/or property. His job is in construction and at his age he is not able to work much longer.

I plan on leaving him in the next few months. I have talked to my parents about his abuse (he is a perfect gentleman), and need to get a PT job to put some money into the bank.

I feel like I am completely unable to handle anything alone which is why leaving felt like the last option. I'm terrified about stupid things like my tire going flat and expensive things that go wrong on a house. What if a big branch falls in my yard or blah blah blah