thank you so much christina, bipolar bear, fifth sonata, soidhonia and direction for your words and support. I am feeling kinda embarrassed now reading what i wrote- it seems l ike a long time ago and almost someone else... i can't even really remember writing it. It doesn't even really sound like me writing it (yes, I am confusing myself as i write this lol). Anyway, things are looking much better today, I have managed to cover the cuts with sticking plasters and it is not very obvious (well, the kids did notice straight away but i just laughed it away; they were playing nurses and doctors and had me covered in bandaids anyway so i said maybe i forgot to take them off). I haven't seen what it looks like under but that can wait!
So, again many thanks for the kind words and support. Oh- and that it the worst thing for me- I just hit a huge brick wall every time and cannot even make the phone call, even when I remain anon...something to work on i guess )