I want to thank everyone again for your responses and for the hugs. In the past I never would have been so assertive in asking for what I wanted. This thread helped me to not email my T yet. I want to prove to myself that I don't have to do it, and maybe she's right about being able to internalize the connection without emailing.

It's still hard, though. Not giving up emailing but giving up what I wish the relationship could be. T said try emailing after the first week but I'm going to post here for support not to do that either.