I think I've figured out that all my anxiety is stemming from a complete lack of sense of safety. It's like maybe in my subconscious my brain is in the mode of "If a fire can come up all of a sudden and wipe everything out, what will happen next??" Thus my constant fear state. I wake up shaking every morning - have for 7 months now since the fire. Worry about things I normally hardly thought of. For the first time ever I'm dreading my son going back to school because I will be totally alone all day again. I used to relish that. Looked forward to it so I could spend my days doing what I enjoyed with quietness. Now I can't bear quiet for too long. I'm going to therapy now thanks to charity care and hopefully will help... Coming upon the anniversary of the last months in our house and of my kitties' lives and dreading this fall. It used to be one of my favorite seasons with all of the color and seemed more peaceful than summer. Last September I saw my favorite band, but the fire wiped out any joy that brought to me. It all seems another life. This different house, the yard a mess, 2 different cats is all still messing with my head. Just on edge all day long which is no way to live. Would be great to feel some peace or relief or something.