So far so good, feeling good especially mentally. True test coming up tomorrow, alone all day 9am- 6pm, plenty of time, kind of concerned. I feel this slight fluttering feeling when I think about it. Fortunately I do have things to do, that are really important, so we will see. My mind keeps telling me how this is different. Kids are out of town, no worry of them. But I can't listen because if I fail my first true test I may succumb to the hopelessness, so I will not fail. I can't I won't f*** my addictions, I'm better than this. Anyway sorry for the disjointed post, sometimes I just write, that's just my thought process on paper. ..well sort of paper