Thanks everyone... it helps so much to have folks who get it!

Kororain - Yup!!! I'm with you... identifying feelings NOW is sometimes pretty hard, forget about the stuff from the past. And, I'm an introvert - I don't think well when someone's watching. I do much better if I can take a question, go home, and think it over in private and put together a response that makes sense. I'd feel the same way about those lists - very much "put on the spot".

HazelGirl - Thanks! I appreciate that you're always so validating! Yeah... I had tried therapy in my 20s too, and I didn't remember these things any better then. Yikes. I really hate the idea of going back into the "looking for a therapist" pool. I was SO hoping this would work out, b/c he really does seem different from other therapists, but I'm not sure it CAN work if he can't wrap his head around the dissociative part. I think what makes it hard for me is (or maybe everyone) is I'm not good at describing the dissociation. If I'm in a good place, if I'm grounded and chatty, it sort of doesn't exist. I can easily look like, "who me? Dissociative? Nah... that can't be right!" It's not on purpose, it just is what it is I guess!

ThisWayOut - Thanks for posting despite your fuzziness, I think you made alot of sense. I'm writing up some stuff to talk to him about. I will go back and try my best to ask questions and explain some of this. I think it will be hard/awkward for me, but I will try and see how he reacts. I don't know though, I'm a bit of a wimp... I think if he doesn't react well and it's honestly not a good fit, I'm not sure I can quit. Not coming back after one session has been easy for me in the past, but actually quitting after even a couple sessions feels so much harder

Thanks!