Dear Okie.... I can surely understand why you feel as you do. You have received some very loving support and advice from your sisters here. You know that better than anyone else we all can relate to how your emotions are swinging all over the place right now.

I wanted to chime in to repeat something sky offered up to you...."The best thing is to respond instead of continuing to react. You are still in control." As hard as that might be to comprehend right now you know in your soul that it is exactly right.

I would add that before you consider how to respond... and again others have already given you some good support about that.... so you won't have to look very far for answers of how to respond... but first you know you need... and you know you want... to settle the emotions that are flying around right now.

What do you usually do when you get upset like this? Do you take a long hot bubble bath? Do you go for a run or watch a funny movie? Do you punch a pillow for a while and then roll over for some sleep? I do some of those things from time to time but always I pray. I go to my quiet place and give it all up to my Creator. I put my sorrows at the alter and I ask for peace to come to me. I wrap myself in a blanket and put on some soft music and I meditate on Creator's love for me until I drift into a place of calm. I remind myself that nothing is too difficult for me to overcome. That everything happens that I might be made stronger.

I suggest these things to you because often times in our outrage, in our sorrow.... we look for answers before we are in a place where we can hear. You must minister to your hurt and let the pain flow out of you. Then you will see the next step to take.

I pray for the peace to be restored in your spirit that you will feel the rest and know what will next be best. Don't rush the process. Give yourself time to come down from the horror.

Be good to yourself and everything else will fall into place. You have survived before.... you will survive again. We are standing with you. You can trust us for that. You can trust again.