Hi Echoes,

Look at all of these wonderful caring responses from people that care about you. What a sign of endorsement!! You are such a caring soul and helpful to me and others at crucial and not so crucial times. Thanks.

I have days when I feel like I trudge in to work and make it through somehow. I have called in sick. Today I felt like crap from a cold and I bet I could have gone to work but that would have about killed me with cold and attitude and preparing for an afternoon important therapy visit..... you know. ;-)

I have to say that I break my duties down and can do things that seem almost automatic and some things that require my brain to actually be there. Sometimes I give my brain a vacation or a break when it has already gone on vacation or turned on me. I too, have phases of surfing the net while at work intermittently ... it is a diversion. I also have some very nice head phones and can help myself by musical diversion. It helps me in my own world and to focus ...with music that will facilitate my making it or producing. It also keeps all other noise out. ;-) Hot doggies.

Having been in therapy for many years sometimes getting emotional is there and sometimes I am tired of it. I think you are possibly still developing trust in your T and in the process. You have really done alot of work preparing for this time for you. Now you are here... You have found someone that you may bond with. That might be a comfort yet that could provide a whole new stressor. When you are sitting in the middle of it ...there you are. I know you can do this. Lately I have been sharing alot in therapy and it has been emotional...including today. I am exhausted.. but feeling productive. It is also practicing progressive vulnerability.... It can be a good thing.

I think it is important to share with your T your experiences outside the office as well as within the office so you present the whole picture. Consider that.

Your company sucks. Your anger is justified. The company does not seem to be concerned to you and that is another vulnerability. Sorry... just saying... not easy to hear I know.

BUT..I just wished to give you a bit of support and tell you to keep with it. It will get better and you will see yourself progressing bit by bit. It will be a road indeed but you will see that the journey is worthwhile...



Me..... SG

P S....I think that we all may worry about looking bad, etc.. With sharing yourself you will realise that sharing is what leads to healing and insight. You will find bit by bit that your therapist is interested in your journey.....and your healing. She will help you.