I know this is very hard for you .. It would be hard on anyone !!

I know you doubt your ability to lose that weight ... MM you have been anorexic a long time... You know how the monster lies to you and makes you feel the need to do and feel things ..

You will lose the weight . Right now the most important thing is for you to get thru this rough time with out losing it and becoming paranoid and "losing yourself" ..... Its okay for you to take the AP .. you need it right now . Just go day by day taking your AP ... Where you are moving is where i use to live LOL .. I think you will like it there ... Lots of things to do .

Just breathe and take your AP